I feel like this is long overdue, but I have been busy living life that I haven’t had time to write a blog post. I’m almost 5 months out from my last chemo treatment and over 10 months out from when I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. It’s truly crazy how time flies! I feel completely healthy and I have no symptoms that it has returned, my doctor doesn’t even want to scan me unless I start feeling unhealthy or there is another reason to, which makes me very happy! But still, it’s hard to not to worry and fear the worst. Mentally it’s always the hardest battle.
Something that I have been learning while reading through the bible and listening to sermons is how present and close God is while going through tragedy. I have learned more and grown closer to God through those times than any other in my life. This quote I heard in a sermon from J.D. Greear articulates better what I am trying to say, “Rather than keeping us from disaster, Jesus will be there walking with us through disaster and the knowledge of Him we develop in the disaster is better and more life giving than mere avoidance of the disaster”. Although, I do pray that I remain healthy (and appreciate the others who pray that for me too). I now also pray that I can trust God and accept His plan in any disaster that I face. Whatever worries of what cancer can do to destroy my earthly body, it can’t touch my eternal soul.
Although the Lord has blessed me greatly (and I do love my life here on earth), none of it compares to being with Jesus in Heaven. Put simply, your life as a Christian can go one of two ways, best case scenario: Everything will be fine, you eventually die and go to be with Jesus. Worst case scenario: Everything explodes, you immediately die and go to be with Jesus. Often, I need to calm down and remind myself of that no matter what disaster I see going on in life. With that being said, tragedy can strike anyone at any time that’s why there is a great urgency as Christians to share the good news of what Jesus has done on the cross for each of us with people who do not believe.
This will probably be my last blog post for a while on here, but always feel free to message me if you want to know how I am doing. I am thankful to the Lord for blessing my body with healing, for the unbelievable doctors and nurses we have here in Canada and for each one of you that read and prayed for me through the uncertainty. But what I am most thankful for is that through this experience I could grow closer to God and learn to trust Him more. It’s crazy to think the cancer was inside of my chest and surrounded my heart, and I was so worried about healing for the physical side but God broke me down and revealed the more important healing I needed in my spiritual heart. I am still not perfect and I need to repent daily of the sins in my life, but I am thankful I am not who I was.